Seventh

My imaginations range terrifies me sometimes. It's so extensive and so awkward. It's like I live in a dream state that I just can't abandon after a night of sleep. I talk to things that can't talk back, but mostly I talk to myself. Thats when you can figure out whats on my mind, when you listen to the conversations I have with myself. And yet I have problems babbling about nothing to the one year old I take care of.

There's my problem. I don't really know how to talk to anyone ASIDE from myself. I'm a sad, weird, internalized little girl with very little ways to get it out. Thats gotta be why I RP. I need a story to tell, any way I want, without being myself but having the ability to say anything I like. Even when I talk about myself, it rarely feels like many are listening. Then again, there aren't many that I want to listen. And some of them I don't even feel like I can tell.

I always thought you were supposed to get it together as you grew up. I mean, adults have all the answers, right? Uh, thats a negative. The more you can comprehend, the more questions you can imagine.

Well, crap.